My internal battle to fight off the constant fear of not knowing what could happen to me at the hands of the government affects my judgment. I donāt know if this has affected my writing. Intuition tells me it hasnāt, but I have trouble trusting my intuition. It is the breakdown of trust ā trust of oneself, trust of others ā that is the worst consequence of living a transparent life.
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The Chinese government talks about building a āharmonious society.ā But how can a society become truly harmonious if surveillance cameras are everywhere and everyone has to live with suspicion and fear? What kind of lives can we lead without trust?